Ah the break up. Never a nice thing. Whether you are the one being dumped or the instigator. I’m not talking about big break ups here, not the death of a serious relationship as that’s a whole different ball game with it’s own set of emotional ramifications. What I am referring to is dating related only. Breaking up with someone you are dating or just seeing on a more casual basis.
I recently ended things with Mr. North. It was really casual but it had run it’s course for me. He was a really good guy and we had fun but I realized that something just didn’t feel right to me anymore. (This was probably also the fall out of what went down with me recently with my Mr. Crush – see my last blog post.) Whatever the reason though, I realized I was done with it and needed to tell him. I have to admit that I wasn’t sure how to approach the conversation. I’m an honest person and I like to approach things in a straight-forward way but I also don’t like hurting people’s feelings. I decided, based on what I knew about this guy and the respect I have for him, that playing it straight was the way to go. So I did. And he took it really well. Kind of the best break up ever really. Possibly because we had never really talked about our feelings for each other or the future of “us”.
But it got me thinking about the art of breaking up. I think that most of us are bad at it and handle it poorly. God knows, I’ve handled breaking up with someone really badly in the past. We either wait too long, are too harsh, do something stupid instead of facing it or we just avoid it all together hoping that the relationship will die a natural death. I suppose some people are good at it, but I don’t want to be that kind of person. If you are adept at the break up, I think that says something about you. (Just generalizing here.)
I asked my peeps about their experiences when they were dating. A friend of mine recounted her story of breaking up with a guy she was dating at Kentucky Fried Chicken and he started to cry. She admits she waited too long to break up with him and eventually couldn’t stand him. You hear stories about people breaking up with someone over Facebook or texts. Harsh. I’d like to think that this is just done by teenagers without any emotional maturity but who knows if that’s true. I know lots of emotionally stunted adults.
We are all tempted to take the easy way out and avoid confrontation when breaking up with someone. Or lie and say something like you aren’t ready to date..which sucks when they find you are dating someone new. For me, at this point in my life, I want to live honestly and not have any regrets, so I prefer to take the bull by the horns, face the fear and have the conversation. I admit that I can be like a bull in a china shop sometimes (like my bull analogies here?) but I want to be truthful with people and hopefully not hurt anyone while I do that. So it’s a fine balance. One I haven’t mastered yet. But I’m okay with that.