Be Here Now

cadb2f465f85db2e39041420f2658aa1I’ve come to the conclusion that when you try to control everything, you enjoy nothing.  A hard lesson to learn. Especially for someone like me. Today I was thinking about moments. Moments that I haven’t connected with because I’m thinking about something else. My next move, my next joke, my next task, my next day.  Whatever.  My brain servers me well and is also my curse. I’m good at my job because I can strategize.  But what about life?

I’m starting to think that  life is perhaps more about moments. Moments that you connect with. Where you are just you and you let life in. Those are the ones that stay in your memory. They don’t always have to be important and sometimes they are brief. We spend so much time looking ahead, maybe feeling like we wish things were different, waiting to heal, expecting the other shoe to drop, saying to ourselves “if I only had…then I would…”, or simply thinking about something else and missing a cool moment altogether.

I do this and yet more and more, I’m becoming aware of it.   The moments that connected with me are the ones where I was actually really present.  The times where I was completely there.  All of me.  With my daughter during a dance party in the kitchen,  when I sat with my best friend and told her I was angry, the night I said yes to something unexpected, the call I answered when my friend was in trouble and needing a shoulder to cry on, the day I spent with someone special who held my hand and I allowed myself to feel loved … for that one day.  Letting your guard down and not thinking of the next thing – but rather just really, really being there.

It’s not an easy thing. Especially for those of us juggling a thousand responsibilities. I think maybe it takes practice. Getting out of your head can take work.  More work for some of us than others!  But I know that I do indeed let more joy and adventure into my life than I ever have before.  And I am blessed with a lot of amazing people in my life to share all these moments with.  And I’m really glad for that.

Let’s try to miss less, shall we?


1 Comment (+add yours?)

  1. Sparkle & W(h)ine
    Aug 26, 2013 @ 09:45:39

    You never cease to challenge me, my friend. And I always leave your posts feeling as if your bravery knows no boundaries. Much love, courageous and wise one! Perhaps, because of you, I shall find a moment today… Xoxo


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